NANJING: On a grey and rainy morning, Chen Si patrols the Nanjing bridge soaring above China's Yangtze river, determined to stop the desperate from jumping into the swirling waters below.
Every weekend for 18 years, Chen has volunteered to scout the 3km length of the metal expanse, talking to hundreds of people thinking of taking their lives and earning himself the nickname the "Angel of Nanjing".
But with a cigarette wedged in one hand and flask of green tea clutched in the other, the unsentimental Chen professes to have "no unique skills" beyond expressing empathy for those whose strife led them to China's "suicide bridge".
Chen had his first life-changing encounter there at the age of 22 when he spotted a woman - a young migrant worker like himself - on the edge, 70m above the water, crying and contemplating jumping.
After he stopped to talk, the woman climbed down and Chen realised he may inadvertently have saved a life.
He says he has since helped 412 people step back from the brink on the bridge - roughly one every fortnight.
Among them was a young man who was particularly strong and bit through his tongue as several men dragged him from the bridge's edge, while another was a man who owed millions of yuan.
"I tell them that I'm also a very ordinary person," Chen told AFP.
Growing up in poverty in rural Jiangsu province helped Chen understand people's desperation, describing himself as "a farmer from the village (with) a foothold in the city".
A pile of tattered Freud books bought from a street vendor years ago also kindled an interest in psychology.
"Although the books had lost some pages, I kept reading them," he said. "It built the basis for me to understand people.
His duties on the bridge weigh heavily on Chen and he visits temples to unburden himself.
"In the past, I didn't have the ability to protect myself, and the people I wasn't able to save returned to haunt my dreams."
Now, when someone jumps, he turns away.
"WE DON'T KEEP COUNT ANYMORE"
When it was completed in 1968, the double-decker Nanjing Yangtze River Bridge was celebrated as a feat of Chinese engineering.
It won a place in the Guinness Book of World Records as the longest dual highway and railway bridge.
But now it is record-setting for a darker reason - it is believed to be the location of the most suicides in the world, having overtaken the Golden Gate Bridge in San Francisco some years ago.
"Sometimes when we inspect the bridge in the morning, we find a single high heel shoe, or a phone with a note under it," Zhang Chun, director of a civil society group in the city, told AFP.
"So we don't keep count anymore but we know it is more than 3,000 lives lost."
Those figures are likely incomplete as traces of some people are never found.
Mental health problems have become more common across China in recent decades, according to a study published in the Lancet medical journal two years ago.
It suggested rapid social change could be to blame, spurring psychological pressure and stress.
Mental health advocates say there is a desperate shortage of qualified professionals equipped to deal with the surge of people experiencing psychological problems, while social stigma around mental health can add to the burden.
Official statistics show China's suicide rate dropping to 5.29 per 100,000 people from 13.56 per 100,000 in 2000 - around half the rate in the United States.
But from Chen's perspective, that decline is yet to translate into fewer people on the Nanjing bridge.
He now has other volunteers to help him, including psychology students from local universities, and trains them in the urgent task of talking to people on the bridge.
"I CAN'T SAVE ALL OF THEM"
Based out of a small office, with the motto "Cry when you need to cry" painted on the wall, Chen converted two rooms into dorms for desperate people without a place to sleep.
But the father-of-one says voluntary work has come at a cost to his personal life.
"I didn't do this alone. It was time that I borrowed from my wife and my child," he said, adding his wife had taken the brunt of childcare.
Chen says he will only stop when he no longer has the strength to haul people down from the edge.
"I don't think I'm an angel. I just want to bring light to those who are in the dark," he says.
"But I can't save all of them. What is beyond my ability, I just give up to the gods."